=))) smile it away. brightens up my night like the day.

sianz-ed.
mood uber uber sianz.
damn moody oso.
was flaring @mother that i cant go fareast shopping.
at first i oready tell myself cannot shop cannot shop,
let mum shop her stuff cos her birthday's just in 4 days...
T.T
COS IM REALLY HANKERING AFTER SKINNY JEANS!
okay. is that the right word?
but you should get the meaning. =)
T.T



but after a slp during the journey home.
im back to normal.
LOLS.
i think i didnt hv enough of slp.
been talking on the phone every single day.
till i slp.
gosh. i hadnt done that since last year.
since my midyear exams.
*stargaze* if only i could turn back time.
numb myself with books and words and mindmaps.
but im glad im living what im living now.
im glad whatever had happened in my life.
yes.
certainly there's heartbreaks, shouts of loneliness, cries of frustrations.
but you have to live with it rite?
it makes up who you are.
you can never be happy forever.
that's what i had learned just by watching America's Next Top Model
and talking to friends.


brood no more of the unhappiness.
no matter how depressed im gonna be
no matter how sad im
no matter how angry im
just lift up those lil muscles
the world will be smiling back to me. =)
i promised that would be the last time im hurting myself.
cos it wont bring back whatever i want.
neither do i wanna hurt my frens.
esp. grace.
i cried harder when she was on the verge of crying when i told her the truth.


realised i have been wasting soo much time of my 10 months holidays.
though ppl do envied me cos i have time like month of sundays!
i didnt make full use of it!
now.
im going to improve my english.
im going to take up french lessons.
ARGH! im so going to self-improve!



but..
*frowns*
i kinda got into trouble with boss.
ah. forget it.
it's been done.
im getting lesser salary.. I WAN $$$$
who's that pretty unlucky guy that need to splurge money for me?? =))
aint working every single day.
it's good in a way.
cos IM SICK OF OFFICE CLOTHES.
argh.
and im able to meet up the girls. wooooots.
shall go and shock them while waiting for them at the mushroom.
missed them lots.
WHY THEIR TIMETABLE DUN MATCH!!!





i understand why she did that.
mayb im wrong
or i could be spot on.
you gotta admit.
sometimes at some points of our lives,
we need attention but we dun have it.
hence we seek for it.
probably went overboard that it irks ppl.
yes you have the right to be angry with her.
because im not you. im in no position to say you shouldnt be angry.
just dun bother about her that's all i can say.