you can go and die seriously.

Fuck you rongbin. Really fuck you.

first of all, the song Fuck you very much by Lily Allen is the best song to bring my message across to you.

To think i was being a nice friend to you.
Now i know you really dont worth any of my pity or friendship at all.
If you got other better things to do LIKE going to your workplace WHEN you're sick,
just tell me straight in the face.
You dont really need to tell me crap excuses like your friend tell you "oh, there will be alot of people then you feel very sian then you dont want to go" and ACT nice saying if i really want to go, you will follow me.

Maybe you know me too well that i wont force you if you didnt want.
DUH, OF COURSE I WANT TO GO. YOU MADE ME TAKE LEAVE LEH. LAST WEEK YOU TOLD ME NOT TO WORK ON THAT DAY. AND YESTERDAY YOU TOLD ME OVER THE PHONE YOU WANT TO WATCH. YOU REMINDED ME THAT THE CONCERT IS ON 19TH DECEMBER. I COULD HAVE WORKED AND EARN MORE MONEY CAN? FUCK YOU.

but wait, you told me you're sick. being a fucking idiot friend, i didnt want to force you to watch.
now i felt like a blardy fool and i should have made you suffer and make you sian and it will be the best present of the year for me. TO WATCH YOU SUFFER.
because revenge is sweet.

I took pity on you. You asked me to go with you in the first place and you're the one who said dont want to go in the end LAST MINUTE. IF YOU HAD TOLD ME YOU WERE SICK THE DAY BEFORE, I MIGHT BE ABLE TO WORK TODAY YOU KNOW? EVERYTHING IS RUINED BECAUSE OF YOU.
now thinking back, maybe you didnt ask the other girls or the girl you like which you told me that you didnt ask them yet because you HAVE actually asked and rejected by them already and i was the last one on the list to ask. for all i know, maybe it's true because i always never reject and never pangseh. That's why you took advantage of it.

Now, im quite grateful and happy that i didnt meet you on sunday because i had the best time with someone else which OBVIOUSLY, i wont be that way when im with you. BUT AT LEAST I TOLD YOU BEFOREHAND like 2 days before AND NOT 2 HOURS BEFORE IM SUPPOSED TO MEET YOU.

Alot of my friends asked me out on that day, but i reject them because of you. AND you still cancelled LAST MINUTE. I COULD HAVE SPENT QUALITY TIME CATCHING UP WITH MY FRIENDS INSTEAD OF ATTENDING A TAIWANESE BAND WHICH I HARDLY KNEW with a bastard like you!

WHY SHOULD I EVEN BOTHER GRACE TO SEND ME THOSE FAHRENHEIT SONGS AND ME LOSING SLEEP TO KNOW THOSE SONGS AND MAYBE LEARN THE LYRICS? FOR WHAT?

Now i know why some people just dont believe you at all or anymore. Because you always claim that you're very good at this blah blah when in fact, it's just plain average. YOU DONT MEAN WHAT YOU SAID AT ALL. It's all boastings. Sorry sorry that's all you can say. I accidentally let you eat my shit, i say sorry can? YOU DONT EVEN REALISED YOU PANGSEH ME LOTS OF TIMES SINCE OUR SECOND BREAKUP. See, you dont even know what wrong you have done. You dont realised, you dont change, you just repeat whatever wrongs you've been doing. In the past, i dont want to say any of your flaws because im afraid of hurting you. Now i know, it's super wrong of me to protect you that way. You just dont know your limits. You think you're a hero? Sickness do not come to you like suddenly. It develops over a period of time. So dont think you can go to a concert when you're sick. SO CAN YOU LIKE GIVE ME A WARNING THAT MAYBE YOU ARE NOT ABLE TO GO TO THE CONCERT BECAUSE YOU'RE SICK? EVERYTHING DOESNT REVOLVES AROUND YOU. I got better plans than to go out with you but i gave you face to accompany you since you asked. You just dont have mindset to think that you NEED AND HAVE to tell me earlier that you cannot make it. You just always go back on your words LAST MINUTE. PLEASE. Dont promise anything UNLESS you're sure.

I can list one whole list about your empty promises. Celebrating my bday. Bringing me onto the Cable Dining with my fav white roses. Deep red psp. Couple Rings and tees. Those 5000 over straw hearts. Saving your own money and finish your studies. Complete your car theory and motorbike. Visit me when im in australia. and so on. LET ME REFRESH YOUR MEMORY THAT I DID NOT TELL YOU TO DO ALL THOSE (except the completing your studies). YOU PROMISED ME ON YOUR FREE WILL. In the end, you still did not do except the couple rings which you bought it UNHAPPILY.

Dont you ever feel bastard AT ALL? Oh, i forgot that you dont even remembered being like this. Yea, so you dont feel bastard. That's pretty awesome. And the best part is, you used to complain to me that your friends always pangseh you. HEY! that's very familiar. because you're the one who always pangseh people now.

I thought that we're friends, your attitude would change. Im wrong again. It's even worse.
Or maybe that girl has your attention. Nevertheless, you're really useless. You're very disappointing.

For the psp part, go and contact yongen instead of me. I have no interest in meeting/ contacting you at all. Because you maybe get SICK AGAIN then you last minute cant come. wooohoo.

I really pity the next girl of yours. Send my sympathies to her.

I know he wont be reading this because im just blogging purely to vent my fustrations. I wont even want to waste my breathe to tell him all this because he wont listen and he's stubborn. Tsk.
I dont care if i sound bitch here. URGH. YOU always make things difficult for me and ruin my plans and make me unhappy. But I meant all that i said and i really feel like telling all this but for what benefit?! *rolls eyes*


WHY DO I KNOW SUCH A PERSON LIKE YOU? GROW UP PLEASE. YOU'RE TWENTY NEXT YEAR! How many things do you want to regret in your entire life? You will get your karma. I can say lots of nasty things to you which you should know. I wont say anything this time. I will just wait and see. I cant wait to see one less irritating person out of my life.


AND NYDC just made my day even better! my cheque is delayed for another week. FUCK YOU.
DO YOU EVEN NEED THREE WEEKS TO CHANGE MY BLARDY FUCKING NAME?
IT'S X'MAS AND I NEED THE MONEY.


Everything's just great.