tsk. i really wish i wasnt even born into this world.

i dunoe.
im at my wit's end.
im already almost 18.
i know age doesnt mean i know my stuff
but i do need more respect.

if you dun trust me,
den dun send me for overseas studying.

if you dun trust me,
dun let me do things on my own.

if you dun fucking trust me,
dun say you trust me.

if you dun trust me,
kill me.
because i dunoe why the hell you gave birth to me when you dun trust anyone.

i dunoe what the hell is going on in your head
because you always say one thing but means another.
you always think that everyone as an ulterior motive to you.
except your friends.
so im supposed to trust my friends too right?
but you dun trust them. that's not my problem.
can i say i dun trust your friends either?
but you said it's not my business.
so why the hell are you poking into my business?
you said because you are my mother.

you know, that sentence does not gain you any respect from me.
parents do have a higher rank.
but it doesnt mean you can use that as and when you want.
you are my mother, you've taught me things.
i have proved to you that i am capable to do things on my own. in the end,
things always end up like this because you dun have any trust in me.
i cant do anymore to salvage this r/s.
you said i didnt tell you properly,
i did! it's only that you didnt get what i said.


things always have to go wrong at the wrong time.