numb to the world.

and i just realised everything that happened recently,
i cant really be bothered to bother about it at all.
no longer knows how people think anymore.
no longer knows want to understand why people are selfish.
you can call me names anyhow you want.
you can hit me, scold me, tell me your problems,
i do not give a damn anymore.
if you wan to win, you can play your game.
there's no need to make yourself like you're the best shyt.
it's a fair competition besides.
what you did only irks people.


i have only the energy of the size of the rice grain left.
im really tired of this worldly stuff.
i have been pushed out of my limits.
im getting sick of talking of my thoughts.
my heart's getting cold towards humans.
i just want to daze my time away.
at least i wont be reminded of the cruelty in this world.
though i have that lil amount of energy, i will stand up once again.
for i know, let bygones be bygones.
you wont be related to me anymore. i will move on.

why love can fade?
why do i seem to always have luckless romance?
why do some humans take love so seriously?
Sparks do not last long. it takes alot of hard work to maintain a relationship.
so after those period of hardwork, bam a third party comes in.
so what? everything done between the couple was just to spend the time away until one of them went off with the third party?
so why? why must we put in so much effort in relationship?
why only some at the end of the day, get to have their rightful long life partner?
why on the path of love, it's so rocky and long?
why no one seems to have faith in love?
so im supposed to let love fade den i suggest a breakup so the pain inflicted to the both of us are less painful?
urgh fuck love.

relationship has the biggest network of problems.


nothing happened between me and my boy.
just some thoughts for the future.
i just felt that everything, everyone's tiring me out.
i no longer have the urge to help anyone anymore.
no one appreciates what i do for them.
i need a breather seriously.
and, im not pointing to any of my close friends ehs.

and i realised everytime i blog, whatever i type just dont makes any sense to me, at least.
probably wont be blogging till june.
exams next friday till end of may.