to forgive, the rose withered.

violet hill - coldplay

Was a long and dark December
From the rooftops I remember
There was snow
White snow

Clearly I remember
From the windows they were watching
While we froze down below

When the future’s architectured
By a carnival of idiots on show
You’d better lie low

If you love me
Won’t you let me know?

Was a long and dark December
When the banks became cathedrals
And the fog
Became God

Priests clutched onto bibles
Hollowed out to fit their rifles
And the cross was held aloft

There in me an armour
When im dead and hit the ground
Loves a poem
That unfolds

If you love me
Won't you let me know?

I don't want to be a soldier
With a captain of some sinking ship Bestow
Far below

If you love me
Why'd you let me go?

I took my love down to violet hill
There we sat in the snow
All that time
She was silent still

If you love me
Won't you let me know
If you love me
Why don't you let me know

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insanity got the better of me today.
slept at 5.30am
was forcefully woken up by my mum at 10am
i was fking pissed.
i didnt talk to anyone at all.
hold on until lunch came in.
gobbled it within 5 mins and went back to sleep.
and mum once again pulled me up.
fuck lahs.
i just dun feel like talking anyone.

i know im super rude on msn to whoever talks to me.
i even shut my classmates up who keeps asking me whether i got the offer letter
when most of them got it but i didnt.

fuck. fuck.
i dun think i wont be well enough for the chalet.
given my fucking messed up and given up state.
i really think i will still breakdown.

this is not me.
i fucking do not let bastards ruin me like this.
i fucking DONT!

and really fuck you edward.
you really think breaking up is so fun izzit?
so what if you just broken up with your gf?
so what if your gf likes that FUCKING bastard.
fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you.

YOU DUNOE ANYTHING ABOUT LOVE.

YOU DUNOE HOW IT IS TO FEEL TO

HAVE EVERYTHING BETRAYED.

TRUST, FAITH, BELIEFS AND YOUR

LIFE.

YOU DUNOE HOW IT IS TO FEEL THAT

EVERYTHING WAS JUST A LIE.

AFTER ALL THOSE FKING MONTHS.

TO REALISE THAT THE ONE YOU LOVE

THE MOST WHOM YOU'RE WILLING

TO GIVE EVERYTHING UP JUST FOR

THE PERSON, EVEN YOUR OWN

DREAM AND FRIENDSHIPS, IS A

FUCKING JERK WHO DOESNT

DESERVE TO LIVE ON THIS

EARTH TO DECIEVE FEMALES.


this time, i really feel like killing myself. i really do.
because this insanity is driving me nuts because i will never forgive that bastard.
and in order to forgive him, i rather die.
and if i die, i bet i'll be a restless soul
making those unfaithful jerks' lives miserable.
torturing them till they commit suicide.


i just need some company, that's all.
i think im okay.