do you?

Been thinking alot on my bed.
I think im a very complicated person. I love both changes and routine. Routines are boring but i like it because it keeps me organised. Changes will be the one to perk me up and give me new challenges. Look at my jobs. One office and another is Fnb. Or maybe im thinking too much and im just a workaholic.

Im still searching something for my restless soul. Something that will just make my adrenaline levels shoot high immediately. Something very very adventurous.

Oh man, i just love working at nydc. Because there will be definitely something happening over there. Haha.
but definitely not the management -.-
Wearing x'mas hat is sooo uncomfortable! and i look very ridiculous.

I have not got any money to buy x'mas presents yet! and i dont know what to buy. But i know tons to buy for myself. I FOUND THE SAME MALE TORTOISE SPECIES FOR MINE AT HOME! But i dont know if im able to bring it over to australia. It's like kinda stupid if i bring both over or i leave these two over here. >.<
And i really want that samsung innov8! It's cheaper to buy from ebay but im not so sure if i can trust it.

Im so going to buy contacts and cut my hair once i get my money tml!
I just hope the salon opens on x'mas eve.

I dont know what to get for my girls! :((

A year's ending. Alot has happened and i have changed for the worst i guess. Im really glad my girls still stood by me, no matter who i am. Grace and jo, El, Yong'en, Jacinda. They never left me. Of course, there are more friends out there. :)

Meet up with jo on thursday at queensway after work. Rarrrr, If only i had the money. Alot of things caught my eye! and im sooo going to buy them during my work lunch hour. Had so much fun with jo mannnn. She made me lose my virginity to CarlsJ that night! LOL. Yes, this thursday would be another gathering for us since Joyce's bday. :) And we wrote our wishes on the ball which will released at the bay. I saw it from the suntec's office and i wished i could write again because i first wrote it in 2006. I've been thinking whatever happened in the year 2006 and the only regret was that i was too young. If only i was a little more matured, i would be much happier.

But heck, :D Im happy with things now. and like what brenda said, Guys exist for pleasure and should appear only when needed and and vanish, literally like poof and vanish when not needed. No strings attached.

Do you ever think you would be what you are now? I would have never imagined myself to be what i am now. Sadly. I mean i do change myself constantly because i do feel bored of myself. but this is one change that i would never expect myself to do. Should i blame anyone? Afterall, this is what they mould me to. Or should i blame myself because i allowed it? Maybe this isnt who/where i should put the blame on. Maybe it's whether i want it.

I think i just want to live to my life to the max with all the fun and adventures.


It's time for me to get ready for work.