I.

I dont know what to do anymore.
You're over there, im over here.
You are lying on the bed but i cannot and not allowed to come over.
WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO THEN?

If the Lord ever wants to take you, i really really dont know what to do.
Why does this have to happen only when i left sg?


I have not slept all night, i have not stop crying.
Im not able to go to school, how is it different from me flying to singapore?


Everyone said you will be fine, nothing bad will happen.
BUT HOW CAN I JUST BELIEVE THAT WHEN I KNOW THERE'S A FUCKING 10% RISK THAT I MAY LOST YOU.
FUCKING 10%
you're alrdy so weak.
why it has to happen to you.
i have not done anything as my duty yet.


i really pray nothing goes wrong.


You use to be someone i always seek help for.
No matter what, you give me what i want.
I gave you lots of disappointments.
Im never was good in academic, unlike brother.
Im very rebellious, but you still love me.
How i wish i was still that little girl who always sits on your lap, goes swimming with you on sundays, play mastermind and cycling and badminton after your work.
i really really hope the Lord will keep you. You have not believe in Him yet.

I tried to be strong, i still try to have fun.
but you're always at the back of my head.
It's very tiring to hold my pride and ego.
I need something but it's not that i seek in aussie.
Im very worn out.

I really really want you to be in good health.