a list

-i really hate all those doubting questions in my head.
im losing my focus and courage.

-at this point of time, i will just call grace/el or anyone for dinner and probably head to the beach.
but im in sydney.
i have not found a way to release my emotions yet.

-i need the beach. no, this is not just psychological needs.
i really need pasir ris beach!

-so what there are friends asking me to hang on on msn, it's different from they telling me face to face. :(

-and im starting to see more weird people in my life.

-wanna see brenda. grace. el.

-can at least one of you come over here to study with meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee?

-im starting to feel im not that 'me'

-i. need. a. hug. badly. like now.

-i bear grudges. i really do. i can be the meaniest person you ever know.

-sometimes thinking for people's feelings is tiring. im selfish. i want people to think for me. Havent i been nice to you?

-i do not wanna talk anymore. i dont wanna be the 'nice guy' anymore.

-i should stop putting a facade.

-i will be strong and not let you defeat me.
Even if you defeat me, i will still hold my chin high.

-i do not like to make my actions known. if you know it, you know it.
if you dont, then do not ask.

-Wait and check. Probably i've done something behind your back.

-i feel that im too forgiving. i wanna change that.
Probably i feels that there are people who thinks they can get away with it or im being taken granted for.

-i wanna He Ji's hokkien mee with lots of sambal.