Dawned.

Everything's whirling in my head. I really can use a short getaway now.
Breakdowning so easily nowadays with the huge amount of stress and goddamn mess.
Many realizations came upon me. I know i've changed.
alot.


realised that fairytales dun exist at all.
fairytales are just a propaganda to children so they will only know of the cruelty in the world in much later years.
Realised that you really need to be selfish in order protect yourself in this world.
Not everyone is as kind as my friends. Everyone cares of their own benefits and do not care about other people's feelings.
If it's really meant to be yours, it will be yours eventually.
You need to be realistic to be in this realistic world. that's how it goes.
and i feels that if no one knows that you're suffering, do not continue to suffer anymore. because no one will understand and appreciates you.
Even if you wan to believe what you have always believe in but it's only you believing in it while others told you otherwise, den you're just dreaming the impossible.
Happiness do not come so easily.

i really really really really wants to beg to differ! I know miracles do exist. It's only hard to come by. Why why why do the adults always says it doesnt exist at all and that it's stupid to think that. you will only get used by people and all those crap.
and whatever is happening around me is convincing me that somehow it's true.
Everyone's losing their innocence. argh. this world's too complicated for me.
im turning into that kind of a person. I am so disgusted by myself.

i hate how im always on the fence. I need to experience VR again.
Computing studies rules like fuck.


Maintaining a relationship is hard work - elhannah ho. :)


and you cant teach your mother how to use 3 in 1 printer, scanner, photocopier.
because she will end up using up both black and color cartridges within 1 week.
i look at the amount my mum print out. wtf.