life's...

What's really life all about?
Learning and experiencing all kinds of emotions?
undergo trainings to be tougher?

Everything that you just realised is always part and parcel of the life.
define life.
people like me will always say "it's like that. things always go like that. you cant help it" when we ourselves 'ren ming'

(laogong just called me! so happy!)
haha. he always makes me smile.

finally got a chance to just use the laptop to chill and chat on msn.
continuing informing friends that i will be going overseas studying.
so many wants to go out with me but i dun have much time to hang out. =\

finally talking to benedict after so many months.
he can be my second brother. we both just have this connection.
similar thinkings all that like siblings. He's 26 i think yet i dun find any communication breakdown unlike me and my bro...
it is always untold love and concern between me and my brother.
we both know we do care for each other but just that it's awkward to directly show and tell.
we are really shy people okay!

humans are always complicated.
what's more is that, different countries/environment/history/experiences affect different thinkings/behaviour.
it just makes things worse.

anyway, was talking to benedict how difficult is to make a first step.
as i said, im alway sitting on the fence. i wan my education because i wan money so i can travel around the world to know more about this world. i always travel for entertainment and leisure.
im so going to tour on my own to discover things by myself. it will be so thrilling and adventurous which i want. :)
but i dun wan to leave my friends and family. i really ultra dependent on my friends alot.
i know i dun really talk much to all of you right now, but you guys are always on my mind. all of you mean something to me. i really cant live without friends.
den he told me "to those who still remembers you when you're in australia or after your undergrad studies, will be your friends forever"
i totally agree with him. he always speaks wise words to me.
im so glad to know you too bro. cheers to our 8 years of friendship.
glad to hear that im one of your friends forever. :)

we're always sacrificing something for something.
it's always losing something in order to welcome something new in.
why cant we have both of the worlds?
i want to know why.
so we learn how to weigh the importance of each issue?


sigh. i guess life's always a mystery like love uhs.
i need to catch up on some slp. tata.