endless disappointments

why do you want to be with me?
just because you dont want regrets? or it's because you pity me?
if you still choose to be with me, why are you still so close to her?
why do you say you wants us to be happy but you making me unhappy?
why are you always making empty promises?
why are you lying to me again and again?
why are you even flirting with her?
what am i to you?
why are you doing this to me?
do you have any conscious?
do you even care about how i feel?

everything that has happened it is as if telling me that it's my punishment for having two jobs.
for not spending time with you.
that's why you are spending time with her.

i am creating trouble for myself for not leaving you.


if you dont like the way i am now, i will stop.
BUT dont ever say or put the blame on me that i dont want to tell you anything.


i only want to tell you this.
TREAT PEOPLE THE WAY YOU WANT TO BE TREATED.



thankgod for the new environment.
i think i will just commit suicide in my own bedroom if i had stayed on.
i even bought penknife on my way home.
peace and quiet and a good company is what i need and have.
i feel so tai-tai in this house.
modern property and furnitures, car rides to and fro work.
and the night is just so beautiful that you feel so at ease.
gazing at that starry blanket while swinging.
life couldnt be better at that moment.


time for another monopoly game! :D