Me.
Im really lazy to blog as often as i used to. I think my blog will rot even more when im over there. I used to blog everyday because i think it's real funny when i read my archives and thinking how stupid it seems to me now. However, it's just plain work every single day. It's b-o-r-i-n-g! School always have something happening.
Right now, i need to vent my fustrations. So i think it's gonna be another long post.
My mom found out about my tongue piercing when she's teaching me how to cook. I think it's the first day i talked so much to my mum. And since sunday, she's been telling me how sinned i have become and im following the worldly stuff blah blah. She wants me to take out my piercing. I told her a straight no and she concluded that im a bad girl.
What is your definition of bad girl? Am i a bad girl?
I know parents always ALWAYS tell their children those people with excessive piercings 'bu shi she mo hao dong xi' and hence we're not allowed to hang out with them.I think it's pretty dumb to judge people like that. Actually i know a handful of people with a little more body piercings than normal-looking people are much more friendly and humane. So it shows my parents are narrow-minded.
Oh yes, when i walked out of the kitchen after hushing to my mum not to tell my father, he's right there in the living room reading the newspapers. Then a while later, my mum came in and told me that she has no idea why my father is so unhappy suddenly and keep saying he's disappointed, he's disappointed. It's damn obvious my father heard lah. -.-
I dont talk to my parents much since young. Ever since im born, im left with my babysitter. Kindergarten till sec school, im left with my maid. After sec school, im busying working and then studying and now working again. Definitely, im closer to anyone than them. We just cant agree on one thing. To them, im still a clueless, gullible girl. Which it's not true at all.
Am i seriously a bad girl? What is a bad girl? What does a bad girl do? Sheesh, Im beginning to find it lame. I have my own mind, expectations of myself. What's so bad about me that you cant approve it? Even just saying fuck for 5 times, you gave me a 2hour lecture. Obviously, you're at the wrong era.
I dont really play all your rules anymore but i still think im doing a good job as your daughter.Im just more adventurous and wild than brother. Both of you always assumes im playing my life away. I work hard, I study hard and I play hard at the same time. Though i may not be as smart and determined like brother, it doesnt mean i cant be successful in other ways. I do treat my education as my first priority. I do have plans for my future. It doesnt mean I dont think about my life/future at all. You dont see me doing it doesnt mean im not preparing it. Assumptions Assumptions. It's all you can do rather than trusting me.
It doesnt mean i dont feel anything when you said you're disappointed. I do and i do feel sorry that i cant be what you want me to be. But im like this. I like the way i am now. I have my own way of doing things and im capable of being independent. I just do not felt the need to be one when im at home. I know im not a devoted Christian. I do not read my Bible and once in a blue moon i attend meetings. When friends mocked about God, i didnt say anything. When im given the chance to preach about God, i didnt. But I do give thanks and pray to Him. I do still acknowledge Him as my Saviour. I know He loves me and will never forget me. He's always there for me. Right now, i agree there's alot of worldly influences on me such as fashion. Especially fashion.
Im not your little girl anymore. I've been through more than you think i have.
Im still your daughter.
Right now, i need to vent my fustrations. So i think it's gonna be another long post.
My mom found out about my tongue piercing when she's teaching me how to cook. I think it's the first day i talked so much to my mum. And since sunday, she's been telling me how sinned i have become and im following the worldly stuff blah blah. She wants me to take out my piercing. I told her a straight no and she concluded that im a bad girl.
What is your definition of bad girl? Am i a bad girl?
I know parents always ALWAYS tell their children those people with excessive piercings 'bu shi she mo hao dong xi' and hence we're not allowed to hang out with them.I think it's pretty dumb to judge people like that. Actually i know a handful of people with a little more body piercings than normal-looking people are much more friendly and humane. So it shows my parents are narrow-minded.
Oh yes, when i walked out of the kitchen after hushing to my mum not to tell my father, he's right there in the living room reading the newspapers. Then a while later, my mum came in and told me that she has no idea why my father is so unhappy suddenly and keep saying he's disappointed, he's disappointed. It's damn obvious my father heard lah. -.-
I dont talk to my parents much since young. Ever since im born, im left with my babysitter. Kindergarten till sec school, im left with my maid. After sec school, im busying working and then studying and now working again. Definitely, im closer to anyone than them. We just cant agree on one thing. To them, im still a clueless, gullible girl. Which it's not true at all.
Am i seriously a bad girl? What is a bad girl? What does a bad girl do? Sheesh, Im beginning to find it lame. I have my own mind, expectations of myself. What's so bad about me that you cant approve it? Even just saying fuck for 5 times, you gave me a 2hour lecture. Obviously, you're at the wrong era.
I dont really play all your rules anymore but i still think im doing a good job as your daughter.Im just more adventurous and wild than brother. Both of you always assumes im playing my life away. I work hard, I study hard and I play hard at the same time. Though i may not be as smart and determined like brother, it doesnt mean i cant be successful in other ways. I do treat my education as my first priority. I do have plans for my future. It doesnt mean I dont think about my life/future at all. You dont see me doing it doesnt mean im not preparing it. Assumptions Assumptions. It's all you can do rather than trusting me.
It doesnt mean i dont feel anything when you said you're disappointed. I do and i do feel sorry that i cant be what you want me to be. But im like this. I like the way i am now. I have my own way of doing things and im capable of being independent. I just do not felt the need to be one when im at home. I know im not a devoted Christian. I do not read my Bible and once in a blue moon i attend meetings. When friends mocked about God, i didnt say anything. When im given the chance to preach about God, i didnt. But I do give thanks and pray to Him. I do still acknowledge Him as my Saviour. I know He loves me and will never forget me. He's always there for me. Right now, i agree there's alot of worldly influences on me such as fashion. Especially fashion.
Im not your little girl anymore. I've been through more than you think i have.
Im still your daughter.
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