bad mood just continues. RARRRRRRRR.

life's so screwed up.
was supposed to go ton-ing.
den suddenly mum said she would see me in the chalet room.
fk.
she never go and check whatever bullshyt number i gave.
i dun even know if that room existed!
was happily shopping with xiaoai at bugis.
i haven even done my hair. which will be later @toni&guy
den my mood was totally ruined. i keep ranting non-stop
which i found it myself irritating.
of cos i had to give up spending the night at jurong.
took taxi home with xiaoai.
i never stopped ranting to andre&grace how frustrated i am with my parents.
my mum LIED to get me home. fk.
i HATE people doing this. LYING to me just to make me do something.
YOU WAN ME TO DO SOMETHING. JUST ASK ME STRAIGHT.
IT'S MY DECISION WHETHER I WANNA DO.
IM NOT YOUR PUPPET. HOW MANY TIMES MUST I SAY.
i even disgraced myself in the public.
i dun even care. i was sooooo fuming mad.
i just say vugulrites in the public and ranting what's my mother doing.
ARGHHHHHHH
reached home. i said DAMN NICELY to them " dun come and disturb me. freaking angry. i oready sacrificed my fun and im at home."
and i just slammed the door and off i go to bed.



i dun even wan to argue with them.
thinking that i will say lots and lots of rude stuff.
and repeating dunoe how many times of unhappiness things since young
and afraid dad will get sooo angry that he get a heart attack
and mother's birthday was just 2 days ago.
i dun even know why im treating them so good.
im seriously outraged. i could have just released it all out @ them
instead of typing out in this blardy blog!
and there's soooo many times that i was thinking.
am i supposed to be born from my mum's womb?
God, why did you create me?
look at my life, i dun think i ever done anything good.
i lied my way through this life.
i even shoplifted frequently when i was younger.
i drink.
i even smoked.
i always make my parents worry and stressed out.
i dun even preach the Gospel.
i hurt alot of people.
tell me. why.
parents used to tell me and their frens that i was a gift from God.
cos they nv tot of having another child after so many tragedies @
the age of 40++




enlighten me people.
im so freaking confused with being filial& having your own principles.
people say you should be filial to your parents. afterall they brought you up,
fed you, love you and even gave you shelter and education.
BUT people oso says you should have your own rights. it's your life. you are the
one who makes the decision. not your parents.


the only conclusion i could have is to talk it out and bi ci ren rang.
but it will never work between me and my parents!!!!!
I JUST WISHED I WASNT ACCIDENTALLY BORN.
SAVE MY PARENTS ALOT ALOT OF TROUBLES& $$$$



grace,
ps. was uber rude. and i tot it was just some=goddamn-who-kn0ws people.
wasnt in the mood for casual talk.




hehs! saw xiaxue @taxistand. xD




/edited/
omg. i just bombarded wooyoun with questions about unsw
DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE.
im too naive
im too high-headed.
thinking i would go through this course smoothly.
this's certainly a wake-up call for me.
FIRSTLY, COMPUTING STUDIES.
initially i was sooo happy that im able to learn photoshop.
but freak! FOR THE THEORY BASED,
I WILL BE TESTED ABOUT PARTS & FUNCTIONS OF COM.
how the hell would i know?!
i hate doing anything that's related to electronics and stuff
though im using the technology myself.
i use it. i dun study it!
I SOOO NEED ZENITH'S HELP.
den going on with the SUBJECTS.
chemistry. i die. wooyoun dun even know what the hell the
textbook is talking about DEN how would i know?!
HELLO! *KNOCKS* IM A OLEVEL CHEM FAILURE HERE.
FREAK.
physics. THERE'S PURE PHYSICS INSIDE. MAICHAM I DIE LE.
WHO STILL GOT PUREPHYSICS BOOK?! LEND/GIVE ME!!!!
maths. the one i loved. apparently oso badnews.
a maths plus jc maths. WHO'S SO KIND TO TEACH ME SOME?!
ahhhh. this reminds me. i prolly could ask mushan to help me again!
afterall he's a hwa chong.
hehshehs.
i dun wan to waste papa's money. 20k. i dun even know WHEN
i can return him.
i wan to study hard. n0 more playing. n0 more last min stuff.
but i just cant IMAGINE ME BEING A NERD FOR 3-4YRS.
it's soooo hard to be disciplined towards studies.
sigh~~~
no more playing afool. im like taking A levels lahs. kns.
o ya!!! there's alot of jc students there too. sianz. they benefitted seh.
and there's oso 20 plus plus. omg.
im the youngest there.
HEHS! NVM. I GOT WOOYOUN TO BE MY SENIOR. HAHAHAHA!
n0w i kn0w where's unsw located exactly in TP.




you know something.
im seriously not ready to go back to sch in 3 months time.
i cant believe myself going to TP every singleday.
take the squeezing bus 15 every single morning.
ARGH. sucks sucks sucks. go eat icecream lahs.
lols as if i have.
WAH LAUS. DUN WAN LAHS.
see my enthu goes up and back down to the ground. or even way below
the ground.
have to make new frens blah blah once again self intro. freaking tiring.
seeing TP makes me wanna sleep.
but definitely n0t NP!
SIGH~ someone please convince me TP's a fun sch.
but i know TP's htm de people damn fun lahs. as in the year2 de.
ssccccccchhhhooooollllllll bores me out.


&andre just told me that last night
i was talking dreamwords to him on the phone.
i dun even rmb he calling me back after hangingup.
i was like saying "two places two places..." in chinese.
=.=
ohmygod.
this is the second time that i could even picked up my hp
and still dreaming.
im going crazy~