unhinged, befuddled, perturbed etc

look at the time.
damn. okay i did sleep. but it's the on off thing lols.
cos i keep telling myself must do homework must do homework.
but den i still doze off in the end.
it's super tiring to slp and wake up den slp again den wake up


emo again emo again.
dismayed, angry, frustrated, self-reproach, blah blah when there's no reasons to feel all these at all.
on top of these, im kinda glassy-eyed too for this period of time.
i need to get a grip of myself.
someone slap me back to the reality.
i hate this feeling.
during classes, if im bored or i cant be bothered for lessons,
i went to find him at concourse. lols.
i keep countdowning to the nxt lesson lahs.
"stella, left one more hour lehs!"
"stella, left half an hour sia. ><"
"stella.. 5mins. "
LOLS. im super irritating seh.
having your partner in the same sch guo ran not good seh.
but it's still somehow an advantage arh.

you know, i realised that having a lappie in front of you the whole night
tempts you to use it.
ever since i've moved, i have been used my laptop to be my source of sound.
therefore whole night online.
lols. and i keep apologising to the people whom thought i AM online.
haha.


anyway, that's about it. im going to slp for another 1 and a half hours more.
*yawns. my slping hours are really disrupted.
i want TP reopen date to be postpone.
because school reopen means packed sardines in bus again.
i haven enjoyed enough of the unlimited space in bus yet!

ciaos.


we did something which i felt it's unforgiven.
and it's oso unexpected.
we shouldnt be doing it at all.
we shouldnt let our desires to get the upperhand over us.
can we dont do it again?