girl's thoughts.

if i just laid here
would you lie with me and just forget the world?



changes.
even for me who adores and always welcome changes,
hates changes now.
i really hate it.
deep inside, i know i cant get back.
yet i still replay the memories for countless times,
hoping silently that i can go back to the past.


i do hate myself for getting too soft-hearted, always thinking for others.
close frens have been telling me that too.
i know, and i wanted to be a lil hard-hearted so much.
because it just irks and angers me that i have been used and known such people.


i really want this "it really doesnt pay to be kind" idiom to be erased.


i know what im saying doesnt link at all.
just some random thoughts i just thought of and i cant take it and just vent it here.
just experiencing some "low" days.