guess the nickname fat will always stick with me.

woke up after 12 hours of sleep. :)))) happy!
12am-12pm.
LOLS!

:( damn i wish operation was today..
because lynn asked me out to clarke quay yesterday. but i cant!
urgh.
i was still woozy from the gas.


i hope this will be the first and the last time doing GA.
general anaesthatic.
fuck man. they insert throught a tube on my hand
and only told me i will feel warm.
It was warm at first, but then it got hotter and hotter with a stinging feeling.
it's freaking squeezing through my vein down my left arm and i wanted to scream
but i was soon knocked out by the gas.

i remembered waking up after i was wheeled out.
i was tearing then. i have no idea why and the nurse thought GA has worn off
and she gave me painkillers.
Then, i realised i was actually yearning for him to comfort me.
I was damn scared of this operation.
Before me, there's this 22 years old girl keep crying because she's afraid of injection and needles
and pleaded her mum to bring her home. -.-
and she kept telling all the stories of injection. wtf!
i wished i had an ipod to blast her off.
urgh. she's totally freaking me out.
and there's this younger boy extracted EIGHT teeth.
i cant imagine how bo-gay he is feeling man.
im feeling damn teethless after extracting 4 teeth.


i keep dreaming of him recently.
and i cant believe the unconscious me calling out his name before and after operation.
i thought i have completely long forgotten who is he.
and i dont think i hate him anymore =\
i even dreamt of him being beside me holding my hand in the operation theatre during operation.
Now, i must learn to depend on myself and face my fears.

anyway, woke up and found my pillow had patches of blood. ahhh. :((
and there's blood in my nose too.
they insert a tube from my nose down my throat to breathe better.
yuck. i dont even want to imagine.
and my face's swollen.
i was told it will get more and more during the first 4 days. :((((((

see those slits at the both corners of my mouth?
they cut it up to open my mouth wider. >.<
and my right side is so much swollen than my left side.
mother wish my face could be this swollen forever. -.-
because i looked better.

and presenting you my wisdom teeth LOLS.one of my upper wisdom teeth was cut into many pieces. EEEEW.

im not able to eat lots of stuff! i cant even eat bread properly.

i cant open my mouth wide. :( i had to eat with TEASPOON.

no alcohol for me. :( that means i cant eat the Jack Daniel's chocolates that el gave me.and no drinking from straws because suction force in the mouth might cause more bleeding.

i've been having lots of weird dreams. from the 1950s to the present.i guess i've been watching too much CSI and cold case.