on a happier note :D

been quite alone for the whole week which means alot alot alot of thinking has been done.
was out to the beach for a couple of days in the night.

i will sure miss this beach alot when im not here.
all the memories with it since i was a kid.
and i will always seek her company when i feel really troubled.
Her music is all i need to calm me down.
Reminscing memories there. happy and sad.
Looking back of the things i have done.
She's really a special place to me.
I've brought every single important person in my life there and will still do.

I've realised im irrational in certain circumstances and im gonna change that.
and for the future, i have it all planned out.
Parents support me but im going to pay it all by myself.
Im going to go national library as often as i can. (blardy costly adult mrt rate)
to study on my own. Making my own detailed notes on human body again. :DD
all the sickness, symptons blah blah. I doubt my course is going to need that
but im doing for the sake of my interest.
i absolutely cant wait! but i need someone to bring me there first lols.
and im going to buy this pretty pretty pretty thick purple notebook from Prints just
for that. woohoo~

and im going to enrol myself in the sign language course at the S'pore Association of the Deaf.
Long Story. i shall cut short why.
From young, i've always been interested in the languages for the disabled.
i still remember there's this chinese drama where Fann Wong act in.
The Stock show de. Fann wong suddenly became deaf and all that.
I was sooo sooo inspired to learn but parents said there's no use. =\
and now i've a friend who lived his 3.5/4 of his life in perth and is back suddenly for good
is currently doing volunteering work at the Cerebal Palsy Centre at elias.
oh man, he's such a good guy. He even planned out activities for them to do.
and now, im damn damn damn motivated and im going to pay the fees myself when i get a job.
and if im going to do until advanced level, total cost will be $425. *fly away



and probably, going back to studiowu?
i kinda missed choonhui's class. =\
but im damn shy sia.
because i will be alone if im joining.


the past few days were somehow a turning point for me.
I had major issues to settle with the school.
and im soo glad that it's done now. so no worries for now.
I seriously need to grow up now.
my father's pension money is all spent by my school fees.
i am grateful and i will make sure i will not let it go to waste and study hard and do him proud.


and of course, i will have to work. :D
i hope the dress boutique is willing to hire me. because that job will allow me to have a second job. :D
im gonna keep myself busy busy busy.
because i want money money money.
i want to eat and shop and relax whenever i want.
and i will put aside at least 200 bucks every month to save up
till it's enough to buy mum an LV wallet.

photos will be up soon! when lynn has sent me the peeeektures!
and that day was damn happening!


there's one good news and one bad news.
bad news : i've been eating 2 to 3 snacks in between meals.
good news : I HAVE NOT GAIN ANY WEIGHT. haha!
o ya, i may need to find time to go to gym. Toning Toning Toning Toning


and i admit, im still not used to being lonely after all this time.