None.

Im feeling very unfair for a long long time alrdy.



I dont know why i always suppress my feelings.

I want the load off very badly. I want to tell my girlfriends so much.

But i cant.



It's very tiring to always think of others before i want to say anything.





Talking to stranger is easier. At least i wont see that person again.





Yes, i still have feelings for you. I dont know if it's love or just a habit.
I dont care at all. I really sick and tired of thinking of you all the time. I have moved on but it doesnt mean i have let go of the past.
You, of all you. You really really fucking ruin me.
I dont want any memories of us.
I dont care if there's any updates of you.
Now i know how blinded i have been, you are not worth any of my sacrifices at all.
Why should i care when you had someone else in your heart?
Im glad i have not stay on in Sg because of you. I should have heed my friends and not to get back again and again.
It's damn fucking frustrating that i put in so much but you dont. and you put so fucking much in the other girl.
I only pretended to be friends with you. I do not want to have anything with you at all in the first place. Why should i be one when i know you're also not a good friend after being with you.
I know everything's in the past. I know i am the only one still remembering in the past.
Why did i love you in the first place.
You said i've changed. Did you ask yourself who was the one who caused the change in me?
You lied to me so many times, how can i fully trust you.
I told those lies to see the chances whether i can trust you again.
I said you've changed. You did changed. You dont allow me into your world anymore. You dont let me know what you're thinking. And you keep saying you have not changed, the only person have changed is me. Fuck you. You put the blame on me.
And also all those freaking God thing. All those shits that you forsee the future. You should have listened to your God so maybe both of us are spared from these bullshits.
You wouldnt care about anything.
I have learnt my lesson, not to trust you.



I've been keeping all this inside for too long.



Im jealous that everyone around me, even in sydney is attached.
I know i shouldnt be feeling that way or whatever. Im not yearning for love, i just want something that i can rely on. If only my girlfriends are here, i can lie on their shoulders as long as i want. There's no one im that close to lie on though some of them did.


I think i should really stop using msn and facebook for sometime.
Take care all.