it's

damn bad that almost everynight i will only take out my contacts when they are freaking blurred. because the air's here tooo dry that sometimes it can just popped out itself after a long day -.-


and i've been sleeping at 4am more often now. =\

im feeeeling damn fucking excited to go shopping with my shopping buddies :D:D:D:D


there's this singaporean clubbing party going on later in the night. I heard that asians party are quite lousy but let's just see how bad it is. Because the other time i didnt managed to went in, it was quite bad. Music suck, atmosphere suck. lol. At least i didnt pay 35bucks for it.


I've been doing maths tutorials so i wont feel guilty that im not doing anything for chem. LOL. but i need to do them now :(

LOVES♥

no that's not the end of the post. i have lots of rantings.

because i cant get myself to study chemistry.

I freaking neeed motivation. Every single day when i wake up, i tell myself "Remember this is for parents"

but i still miss lectures, i cant be bothered to go. So i stay at home to do my tutorials only to find myself avoiding them too. Most of the time im hogging my laptop or baking stuff.

What am i supposed to do. My main motto is to enjoy life as much as you can. But i cant because i will only regret my actions for pushing everything to last minute again. This is sooo the wrong time to enjoy life.

I also want to be with friends, watch tv with my housemates etc. But i cant because i need to catch up before it's too late.

And mum just now called me to forbid me to go ski-ing in june. I was so angry about that. Am i supposed to stay at home for the whole of june then while others are having so much fun? She said it's too dangerous -.- Even my brother also told her that just tell her to take care, if she wants it. I like how my brother is giving me my own independent space to learn things. He also said that he wouldnt be like parents nagging all the time as he also hates that. Life's too short to restrict yourself to not have fun and fun to me means all those adrenaline activities. Thank god, i only told my parents about ski-ing because i might go on sky-diving. HAHAHA.

I know im here to study but i might as well try out things that are not available in Sg.

Ah, i dont know what im talking, i neeeed to do the fucking chem.