life's..

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A. People who have been tagged must write theiranswers on their blogs and replace any question theydislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
Tag 8 people. Those who are tagged cannot refuse.

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1. If someone betrayed your trust, what will your reaction be?
crazy one. i will cry and think why that person has to do that. if i think that person's worth my asking of why, i will ask that person. if not, i will leave it.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
it's hard. =\ that everyone can really find what they truly wants in their life.

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
lols. erms. i dunoe. there's many types i want. Either it's all white and grand or small one but gold colour. lols. i also thought of a purple theme wedding!

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
can say so.

5. What's your ideal lover like?
a guy who has an interesting philosophies of every single damn thing on earth and is sweet and tries all ways to make the r/s work.

6. which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?
being loved by someone else.

7. If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?
dunoe. it depends.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
move on??

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?
im so lying to myself if i say no.

10. What do you want most in life?
care and concern.

11. what would you do, if u feel someone doesnt like you?
i cant do anything if she doesnt like me. basically i wont do anything.

12. If you find out that your best friend is going out with your boyfriend/girlfriend, how would you react?
i will step out of the r/s.

13. Who is currently the most important person to you?
no one in particular.

14. What kind of person do you think I am?
barney! i know you hate him. but you look like barney! xD

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?
i dun mind being married and poor. as long as im in love with my husband and so is he, we can through this period of tiime and make it better.

16. What are the 3 most important things in your life?
friends, love and music.

17. Would you give your all in a relationship?
yes, i would. but i will see if that guy is worthy of me doing that.

18. If you fall in love with two persons simultaneously, who would you pick?
none.

19. What type of friends do you like?
this question's weird. People call some other people friends because they think they click, have fun and can communicate. Just dun backstab or use me im fine with any kind of friends.

20. If you played a prank on someone, and he/she fell for the trick, what would you do?
i will laugh if she/he doesnt realise it. i will still laugh if he/she realise it because i dun need to say anything. ha.

Tag: Elhannah, Aloy, Yongen, Cherie, Jaclyn. (ehs! im short of friends lahs!)


thankyou for those who called/sms me to wish me happy birthday.
but it's really another day for me to study.
because everyone's studying, busy with their own stuff.
so what im 18?
there's really nothing for me.

i do need some time to move on.
afterall these time that i always have someone with me,
within 4 days, im left all alone. even my 18th birthday
while everyone in their lives are having the best time.
i do feel kinda neglected.
i dun blame anyone.
i should really stop over-relying on people
zenith said maybe all these will make me stronger. perhaps. but i really dunoe.
it just kind of making feel that humans are really useless.
yongen said maybe im pretending to be strong and moving on, but it will become real in future.

i really dun understand.
Doesnt anyone believe in love anymore?
Love is more than just being together and do whatever couples do.
Having the most special and fun and unforgettable and irreplacable memories of the time.
doesnt anyone believe in hardwork being paid off?
anything is really possible.
So many long-dist r/s have worked out.
and it was all sweet to see that both sides are willing to do anything to be with each other.

I really believe in love.
why this world has to be realistic?
Extraordinary things have happened all over the world. It's only been untold.
Things always happen when you least expected it.
Love is unpredictable
Why is that people dun hope anymore?
Why no one is chasing anymore of their hopes and dreams and just let reality take over them?
Why everyone's calling me stupid because i think this way?
It's not wrong to think it this way at all.
Because i know there's no such thing as "get real"
Can you please define "get real"?
I was almost going to become a realistic. But then, i didnt want. I feel so stupid.
It's like no one ever believes in anything.
It's like they are "getting real" and pursuing earthly wants to satisfy their own search of meaning of life which can never satisfy them.
They are not living life to the fullest at all.
No longer believing in fairytales because to them, they are tired of searching it anymore and think that it will never happen to them.
I will never become one of them because i know fairytales do exist.
nothing can change me thinking otherwise.
It's only that the stories doesnt tell you all the bad events that can happen in between or after being together.
Whatever happens between the couples, it will either pull them away or push them closer.
hmm, suddenly i dun feel that im not talking any sense.

anyway, with him, i dun mind embarrassing myself.
like telling him my childish thinkings like how i thought of rain.
screaming away like a maniac because i saw a spider or flying insects.
laughing like no one's business, losing my image.
letting him see my crazy zi lian photos.
because i know he loves me for who i am.
but now thinking back, there's so many criterias for a r/s to work out.
it really is between the two.
i have never let anyone into my life/world at all except him.
and i dunoe whether i have the courage to let anyone in again.
all of these is really too hurtful that it's a fearful experience.
i have done my all. i have never let him down in any way.
i have been faithful to him. i have done all i could. but since he feels this way,
i have no say and cant say anything.

i just went down to the playground to feel the rain hitting on me.
it's been long since i do that and i really wan to feel that.
no one's able to see me crying.
and at least i have "someone" crying with me.

I'll never smile again - The Platters
I'll never smile again
Until I smile at you
I'll never laugh again
What good would it do

For tears would fill my eyes
My heart would realize
That our romance is through

I'll never love again
I'm so in love with you
I'll never thrill again
To somebody new

Within my heart
I know I will never start
To smile again
Until I smile at you

Brother just called to wish me happy birthday.
and he asked me why never go out. i didnt say anything because i was crying
den he was like uh.. oh. okay. ehs. bb.
so now the whole family knows.
when i only told my mum.