here i am for another post. :)
amazingly right?!
felt sooooo enthu in blogging now.
your truly is in a happy mood at the moment. heh.

alot of thoughts were going through my head before i blogged the previous post.
i really really didnt want to blog at all.
felt sad, restless, frustrated, helpless and lazy.
i didnt want this day to come at all.
for the first time in my life, i dread national day.
because i remembered clearly how i had celebrated it last year.
he brought me and my classmates to marina square last year.
we bought two star lights. one for him and one for me.

yes, im still mentioning him on my blog -.-
Weird isn't?
and i managed to talk to stella online the other day.
gosh, i missed her so much and i just teared while talking to her.
she's sooo glad that i've moved on and am busy with my life.
i really miss her. i treated her like my older sister.
usually i wont have any expression when people typed take care, see ya soon.
but when she did that, i just broke down.
she was the first person i talked to during orientation.
she was the one who kept encouraging me to study hard, try getting rid of obstacles for me to attain higher grades,
she was the one who never stopped showing concern to me like her own sister.
she gave me face when he's there even though she hate him to the core.
and was still there for me when my status changed.
she would msn and call me to check if im okay when i got drunk that day.
she was the one who shared her joy, sorrows, frustrations and thoughts with me.
she even told me that usually she doesnt get so close with people so easily, and yet she could get close with me easily. i was so happy to hear that from her.
on graduation day, we both make each other laugh so we wont cry in front of each other.
at our last meeting, there's this awkward silence when we said our last goodbyes and loves.

but i will see her. at least i will see her in feb'09.
im missing her sooo much that im crying like shyt while typing all of this.
ahh. this post wasnt supposed to be touchy!

anyway, back to the point.
last year means last year. it doesnt concern with 2008.
and i have learnt my mistakes and i wont let history repeats itself.
Enough is enough and i will be so foolish to let myself get soo blinded just to be hurt in the end.
Ranting and crying makes me feel better :D and im ready to face today's challenges!


btw, as i had said, i feel sad, restless, frustrated, helpless and lazy.
Father wants to bring me and mum out for lunch.
he always does it on public holidays or any of our birthdays.
i declined. i really dont wan to go out! besides my feets are still sore from 5 consecutive days of work.
and i somemore woke up at 12pm. eat what shyt sia
besides after that i have to go to grandma's house. even more sianzzzzzzzzzzzz
i want a rest day!


after a few hours, my laziness worn off. i began to be hyper.
called grace to jio her to clarke quay. :D
that tai tai made me wait for her half an hour! rarrrrrrr

but still, we rock national day man!
i wanted to wear my red tank top but it's in the machine! ahhhh.


saw that yellowish spot on my face? it's the bruise left by that freaking wisdom surgery.
urgh. go away quick!

grace's totally crazy today. i think P2 can be a weapon to send people over to imh.

mummmy! are you laughing at this?! grace said you would be.

and up that "bungee" goes. we're such a sadist. LOLS.

grecian vs grandma's vintage.

i seriously love my red hair no matter how many times i look it. HAHA.

imagine how embarrassed i am when there are people walking towards me!

this freaking nippon-nese girl wants that train effect. rarrrrr.

thankyou grace for accompanying me this day. :D
looking forward to the next outing with more money HAHAHA.
this post took me quite a while to type and now it's already 3:09am
and i've got church at 10am and i have to report to work at 6 till closing time.
yay! another day to go home late. been home at 11pm these days. heh.
dad's been quite relaxed with the curfew nowadays. now i have to handle mum. ahh.
mission impossible.

work's really really enjoyable. im always looking forward because i love being in the service industry.
do i see any jaws dropping? because i have seen some when i told some. lols.
even my parents are astonished. they thought i would be grumbling and wanna quit. but i didnt.
i do not see any reason to quit at all.

i wanna see my ncis now. tata!