it's all about you

How do you know if you have lost yourself or just going through a down phase?
Now, all in my head is that i wanna be beautiful, skinny and have my lip piercing back.
i wanna be dolled up, i wanna strut the streets in my high heels, i wanna wear gorgeous long dress.
i want to do what i want.
Have i lost myself?
why am i feeling so down? Why?
Why am i so concern about my thighs and figure? Nobody is forcing me.
Why am i like this?

Yesterday was the most beautiful day i have ever been. I have never felt so confident about myself.